tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-66050781015952757332024-02-20T15:38:03.533-08:00A life in recoveryCeltic Firehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02328716204322825861noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6605078101595275733.post-83164460999596374652010-12-27T15:02:00.000-08:002010-12-27T15:02:36.654-08:00An old year into a new yearOn December 29th, I will have been off of heroin for a year. It was a hard year, a fulfilling year, a horrible year and a wonderful year! Ive spent the year working on my mind and spirit. I still have alot of work to do in those areas yet Ive also come so far. The one thing that snuck up on me was that I am now 200 pounds! Recovery and certain medications definitely packed on some pounds but sadly what was really happening was that I was eating my feelings. I substituted one addiction for another and thats all there is to it! Life has become a vicious cycle of feeling like crap about how I look (and feel, its not comfortable being fat) and eating to soothe myself. Food and shame have become my life. Now as I hit my year mark in clean time, it is time to work on my body. I am scared because I realize that this will actually be harder than kicking heroin. I have quick access to food and no one will know if Im "using" it. I am terminally lazy, though my job is very physical. I have alot of pain and medical issues because of my weight gain. In 2 days, I start my new year of recovery, focusing on eating right and exercising with trepidation and excitement.Celtic Firehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02328716204322825861noreply@blogger.com0